TweaK
Premium Member
Galatia knows a very large portion of this story... I'll do my best to re-explain the past few months to you all.
I've known this girl for about 3 or 4 years now, and we've been really close friends for just that long. I've really just started to think about her this way a couple months ago. She's always had this kind of closeness to me, and she always jokes about shit like that with me, so I really don't know when she's serious...
So she's kinda like this: She's a city girl, (asian,) she's had action and all that shit, she's used to the city life... But she's in a small town. I don't know if she would go for me though. I know she doesn't go around ****ing every guy she sees, but she's also had her encounters with worse things. I really think she's calmed down though, the drugs/sex/etc.
I was gonna just see how shit goes, but a giant ****ing hunk of shit has been tossed into the mix of it all...
I'm moving, so far away, what seems like ****ing forever. I've got a month left here before I'm gone. She know's, of course shes super pissed, and I've noticed a lot of physical stuff going on between us, it basically looks like we're going out, - the kissing and shit. She has had contact with people in this fashion, but never this serious. Lately, she's been getting closer to me, I don't know if she's just doing that to make me happy, or if she really does feel that way... I hope/think I'm right.
A month... A month... I've got a month left. Do I take a risk and go for it? If so, how the **** should I start it? This would definately make leaving far worse. If not, i'm probably going to ****ing regret this shit for a long time, as I did last major move I did...
This is probably ****ing stupid babble, and it's also ****ing useless talking to a bunch of ****ing game geeks on a game forum, I've flamed people for asking advice on this ****ing forum, but here I am ****ing pouring shit out of my ****ing keyboard. ****ing stupid if you ask me, I don't expect to get a ****ing good response out of this ****ing bullshit, I doubt more than half the ****ing responders wont even ****ing read the ****ing post, but what the **** ever. Here you ****ing go, my ****ing cliche hunk of shit post.
...i love her... it took me a while to get over my last ****ing heartache, but I'm pissed that it had to happen under these conditions. Go ahead ted, call me emo. Go **** yourself.
And for you assholes who think I have no life, or am a complete idiot, you're probably ****ing right.
