WHat to do with myself?

[Glowy]

Well I've sitting her sippin some wine and duno why but the thoughts I always avoid started coming back into my head....wtf am I going to do with my life? I mean....I have no career going for me, I have alot of money thats not the problem...its just I don't want to be a bar manager and sell drugs the rest of my life.

Well my lesbo friend asked me yesterday if I wanted to buy a 3 bedroom house and move in together but to me buying a house is one step towards settling down. It kinda depress's me becuase I want to do something with my life besides party but I don't know what to do. I'm moving again this december but I don't know where. I've considered moving out of the country, debating on whether I want to go back to Florida and join the us coast gaurd.


I just don't know and its depressing and aggravating all the same.


-.- growing up sux

 

[Dark Mistress]

I concur, sir... =(

I just got back from college registration and shit. And I'm torn between two careers. Now that I think about the big picture, it's a total reality check and a bit of a shock...

Buying a house isn't really settling down. I think bartending/managing is a sweet deal...

:hop

 

[Glowy]

yea most people did and i thought so also but it just ruins the whole bar scene for you... and see i have a big problem with self control...thus that means i end up getting smashed everytime i get off of work.

 

[Dark Mistress]

Well, as simple as it is to say "just don't do it", I'd have to say, either get some help <not saying your a omgragingalcoholicyouneedpsychologyAAmeetings> but, from friends. How does it ruin the bar scene..?

:hop

 

[Glowy]

too much of a good thing can burn you out....but i've already tried help been to rehab 2x aa 1x


and i always go back...thats not gonna work i think im going into the us coast seems i got to get someone to force me or something i duno...just being emo today -.-

 

[Dark Mistress]

Aww. I'm sorry... Regardless of what happens, things will work out. If you need to talk, you got me on MSN... Sorry to make this turn to a pussy-fest, lol...

:hop

 

[Jimbo]

Glow.. You've been through a lot man...

Settle down with her.. She seems like a good friend imo.. Keep selling drugs and pay your way through college then start your life

I wish I had money
Selling doesn't work much for me

 

[Glowy]

Well like I said...money isn't a probablem... in two year I basically gonna be rich. 1 mil coming my way. No joke. And its not your fault dm. I not looking for a pity party. Its just I started thinking about the future the whole ,"where am i going to be in a few years" thought and it depressed me :/

 

[Dark Mistress]

Glow.. You've been through a lot man...

Settle down with her.. She seems like a good friend imo.. Keep selling drugs and pay your way through college then start your life

QTF...

:hop

 

[Wing Zero]

you can try what i said to you in a chat a while back/
go back to school

 

[Glowy]

yea i was considering that....but its really hard for me to focus at school unless its about something im really interested in...i mean if i was like in sex 101 i'd ace the class.


But alas thats not gonna happen. I duno. I thinking about going to europe for awhile and see what it has to offer.

 

[Dark Mistress]

What makes you think Europe is going to be any different than where you are, now..?

:hop

 

[concrete_sox]

i wont say anything this time since what i said last time earned me a 1 month ban

 

[Glowy]

New people new culture....I've worn out everythin there is to offer in east usa. I duno maybe my roommates right. Maybe I should just go fine a g/f get married and settle down o.o. Means I gotta stop being a woman hater then. And i still hate'em. No offense

 

[Dark Mistress]

Hrmph...

:hop

 

[concrete_sox]

stop doing drugs.

 

[Zoltar]

Move to Maryland.
Me and you can ball all day.
Then you can give me money, since its not a problem.

 

[Dark Mistress]

stop doing drugs.

Probably the ONLY thing I'll agree with you on...

:hop

 

[Glowy]

yea probably....but then life would be boring

 

[Dark Mistress]

Do you really think you're doing yourself good by being "entertained", in that way..?

:hop