I have come to a fine realization in my life. I have discovered what I need and what I want. You too will discover this Viz, then you will know what it takes to make you happy. You want a girl who will work just as hard as you in your pursuit for happiness. Either way, you are far too young to settle down, so you shouldn't let these problems consume you. Good luck in this, just don't let it build up inside of you, it will bring you nothing but pain, discomfort, and insanity. I speak from experience.