Dealin with depression...

[Glowy]

Welcome to Stoner America. Weed doesn't hurt, all those poisonous chemicals stored in your brain fat are actually GOOD for you.

But seriously, Brad. You do need some direction. Even if I've never done an illegal drug in my life and can't relate to your drug dependancy, I CAN relate to the feelings of aimlessness and desperate need of a hobby or something to give me some focus.

My advice, just try a bunch of assorted things...painting, writing, building, sculpting...anything that requires focus and is healthy for your creative side. I'm sure you'll find that a lot of it just doesn't hold your attention, but eventually you'll find something that surprises you by becoming something you're really interested in.

Find something you love, that you can dedicate yourself to and excel in. The feeling of pride at being good at something you love is a wonderful thing, and it can heal you in a number of ways.

well i was with raving but that requires drugs lol...

Listen I'm not downing pot or blaming pot...its just one peice of the problem. I've been on harder **** lately but just been using pot as a reference to whole.

I've kinda fallen out of the rave scene since our club closed down and that's been adding to my depression I looked forward every tuesday to dance to some break beats and dance to some trance.

Thankfully looped productions is holding a special black light halloween trance night. I'm so stoked. Maybe I just need a good night of freemindness.


o yea clear check out my new fav tech band

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=72654814

s3rl fer sure remix ****ing owns...

 

[Clearcast]

yeah man i got kinda depressed when they shut one of my fav dnb clubs downtown, used to be the ****, you just move on and find other places man.. Either way, its youre choice to make when you stop raving or even just take a break from it for a bit... Try something new or go to Ibiza or somemethin..

That tunes class by the way, i havnt heard anything like that for ages, its like happy techno all grown up.. luv the beat. Il have to share some of my tunes to you, see if you like any of this ****.. i want my decks real bad now i wanna start makinhg sets again.. neeed moneeyy..

 

[Dark Mistress]

o yea clear check out my new fav tech band

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=72654814

s3rl fer sure remix ****ing owns...

Gigi D'Agostino- I'll Fly With You

I've been obsessed with this song, lately... -_-

:hop

 

[RyanXWing]

Ever considered picking up a musical instrument? Guitar is actually a pretty easy instrument to learn. And its a good distraction I find.

 

[Metal Gear Flash]

watch childrens cartoons....they're funny, and they're always on....and if you ever get caught just blame it on nieces/nephews...i got caught watching avatar and i used the ole "well uhh...im waiting for this show after this...uhh yeah"

 

[Zmoney]

How about you come to NY, well get a house and get laid.

 

[Clearcast]

Gigi D'Agostino- I'll Fly With You

I've been obsessed with this song, lately... -_-

:hop

Ahhh my god <3 you for that, i remeeemmbeeerer thiiiss! gigi lol awesome to hear that again. Have you heard Scott Browns remix of it? its a bit more uptempo, listen to it: http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=ce3iZGSwkoE

Ever considered picking up a musical instrument? Guitar is actually a pretty easy instrument to learn. And its a good distraction I find.

I said that....

 

[Dark Mistress]

Ahhh my god <3 you for that, i remeeemmbeeerer thiiiss! gigi lol awesome to hear that again. Have you heard Scott Browns remix of it? its a bit more uptempo, listen to it: http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=eZ2xA0AMYq8

I said that....

OMG, Yeah I have heard it, it's awesome. I don't know what it is about that song, it just brings back memories and such...

:hop

 

[Clearcast]

yeah same here back in happy hardcore raving days... fury - lemonade raygun and ephexis - perpetuate.. i wanna goto slammin vinyl or HTID again now.. if ur after any tunes by the way just shout at me an il see if i have them..

 

[Dark Mistress]

I have the Never-Ending story version from Happy Hardcore, a few Alice Deejay, one Haddaway, Zombie Nation... I love the older techno stuff, but I do like Zombie Girl... Do you have anything similar to these..?

:hop

 

[Carbon]

This is more of a therapy approach but whatever, I was diagnosed with depression just over a year ago and I've learned to cope with it through this. It's a method called CBT, an idea that's fairly simple, that focuses on changing the status of your emotions by changing such factors as the situation your in, the behaviour you display, and the thoughts you think.

The principle is that your emotions are decided by what you think and how you act. These factors are determined by your situation, and in changing these, you can alter your mood/emotions.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_behavioral_therapy

Sorry if I'm acting all psychotherapy on you, but I've been through a deep period of depression and it really isn't knowable unless you've experienced it. Hope it helps.

 

[TroiK-]

Is there anyway to deal with depression besides using drugs? Not illegal ones. (though i prefer it).

I've been falling hard into depression again and before i get as bad as I was last time I'm trying to prevent it. I'm trying to get away from drugs to solve my problems. I stopped selling and quit my job today. And this has been such a ****ty day. I've sat in my room staring at the ceiling from 12 to 6. ITs gotten to a point where life is so god damn boring....I went out bought some useless clothes and that new ipod nano. Still bland. Tried eating some pizza......blander still..went and saw superbad....while funny I barely laughed by myself.


My phone been off all day and my voicemail is nearing full. I don't want friends for some reason.. the more people hang around me the more i want to be alone. I constantly wear my earphones to tune the world out as I slide threw this ****ty place. And yet people don't seem to get the hint that when i got my headphones on it means don't bother me. No i don't care if we havn't seen each other in 6 years....I don't care if your interested in me and tried lamly to hit on me. I don't care. Yet I ask myself....why do I want to be alone where I become the most emo when so many people constantly want me around. Why do I shed friendship? Why am I so heartless?

It like i get off on being troubled now. Being normal is so abnormal. I duno. I always thought the hardest thing in life is getting money.....yet I don't care about money. Yea I still got alot and more to come but...its not making me happy. I end up blowing close to $500.00 not on me but on friends when we are out drinking. I know peolpe use me. For my money,drugs, possesions....and for awhile I ignore it. But inside it really piss's me off because if I didn't have all this, nobody would even give a **** about me.


I duno...maybe I'm just a modern guy stuck in past morals. A romantic perhaps? or just plain emo inside.

But I've been thinking how do I change this? How do I become a better person? Mentally. I'm thinking that milatary is my only hope. While yes college is more fun. I'm not gonna change i'll just end up on atarol again.

I need a mental cleansing and I'm dieing to kill someone. (seriously) so yea.....I think its for the best of my life.

wow i never knew these were symtoms of depression i just thought i was always ****ed up in my head

 

[Glowy]

This is more of a therapy approach but whatever, I was diagnosed with depression just over a year ago and I've learned to cope with it through this. It's a method called CBT, an idea that's fairly simple, that focuses on changing the status of your emotions by changing such factors as the situation your in, the behaviour you display, and the thoughts you think.

The principle is that your emotions are decided by what you think and how you act. These factors are determined by your situation, and in changing these, you can alter your mood/emotions.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_behavioral_therapy

Sorry if I'm acting all psychotherapy on you, but I've been through a deep period of depression and it really isn't knowable unless you've experienced it. Hope it helps.

yea much thanks. I'm trying to find my root problem because I really dont' want to be this way anymore. I found temp fixes but I always break down sooner or later.


@clear very tight **** dude send me a list of your favs..

 

[Clearcast]

safe man. well as for techno, heres this list ive had on my phone for a while of tunes i heard and want.. theres some BADass tunes in there..

Legowelt - Disco rout
Speedy J -Krekc
Mauro Picotto - Baguette
Umek - Gatex
Phil Kieran - I love you (Adam Beyer vs Lenk Remix)
DK8 - Murder was the bass
Vitalic - La rock
DJ Rush - Get On Up (Chris Liebing Mix)
Green Velvet - La la land (Zzino vs Filterheadz Mix)
Frank Biazzi - Turbulence
Dave Clarke - The Wolf
Renato Cohen - Pontape
DJ Misjah - Rocket EP
Adam Beyer - Ignition Key (Speedy J Remix)
Justin Berkovi - Sustained Buxom Mad Chips
Robbie Rivera - Harder & Faster (Kobbe & Zzino Remix)
Mr Sliff - Rippin and Dippin
Monica Kruse and Voodooamt - Waves (G-Force Wild FX Mix)
Sound of K - Silvery Sounds (Technasia Hard Mix)

Got tons of hardcore and techno an jungle on here at the moment, an the moment i get some decks ill start ripping all my vinyl, tons of old skool trance acid hardhouse an break.. My prized possesions.. Im absolutely ****ing skint at the moment an theres too much **** i need to sort out before i start spending again..

GP i still havn even got you on MSN or anything.. if you like that i got more, add me bro. or soulseek or something..