AxL
Buggin' Out
For years I have done football. My first year of pop warner, I was overweight by 15 pounds. In about a month I had lost that weight and was on the team for good. I have never been the best (infact one of the worst) football players, on any team I have played, but I enjoy the sport a lot. So anyway... during the last week of Augast everybody on the varsity/jv team needs to come to a conditioning camp. It starts on Sunday (Augast 29) and goes to Saturday (September 4). So the first couple days were ok. However I came down with some kind of stomach ache and I got pretty sick (puked a couple times) and on Tuesday I just didn't think I could finish the camp. I told the Coach how I felt. I told him how I felt, which basicilly was I wasn't sure if I wanted to play anymore, and that things just didn't feel like they were going my way. So he told me to think about it overnight, and I did. I quit.
Flash back to 3-4 days ago. I started thinking if I made the right choice. So I kept thinking about it and again I thought I made a good choice. I was going to go to the coach on the first day of school and tell him that I wanted back in (yesterday). I go to the coaches office and I tell him I want a second chance. He told me since I left camp early that it looks bad on me. He told me it looks like I just left camp to get out of the work, so I could join the team again. He told me he would have to talk to the other coaches about it first, and to come back to him today.
So today I starting think what I should do again, and I still couldn't make a choice. So I though hopefully by the end of the school day I could arrive at one. False. I started walking towards the locker room, and the coaches office, and I still couldn't make up my mind. So at the last second I took the turn towards the bus and away from the locker room. On the bus I started debating again, and I was going to get off the bus and join, but the bus started moving.
So now I have two choices. I have the choice of going to the coaches office tommorow and telling him I had a doctors appointment and I couldn't have come. Or I can just forget about it, and end my football career as a quiter.
It is like a never ending war in my head. Two sides are constantly fighting, but no chance to win. I can't make up my mind, so I thought typing all this and getting some ideas from people would help.
Cheers.
Flash back to 3-4 days ago. I started thinking if I made the right choice. So I kept thinking about it and again I thought I made a good choice. I was going to go to the coach on the first day of school and tell him that I wanted back in (yesterday). I go to the coaches office and I tell him I want a second chance. He told me since I left camp early that it looks bad on me. He told me it looks like I just left camp to get out of the work, so I could join the team again. He told me he would have to talk to the other coaches about it first, and to come back to him today.
So today I starting think what I should do again, and I still couldn't make a choice. So I though hopefully by the end of the school day I could arrive at one. False. I started walking towards the locker room, and the coaches office, and I still couldn't make up my mind. So at the last second I took the turn towards the bus and away from the locker room. On the bus I started debating again, and I was going to get off the bus and join, but the bus started moving.
So now I have two choices. I have the choice of going to the coaches office tommorow and telling him I had a doctors appointment and I couldn't have come. Or I can just forget about it, and end my football career as a quiter.
It is like a never ending war in my head. Two sides are constantly fighting, but no chance to win. I can't make up my mind, so I thought typing all this and getting some ideas from people would help.
Cheers.
