I am down in spirits.

[Static]

This past year has been terrible. I really don't know what to do. If anyone truely knows my posting style you will be able to tell I am telling the truth, for one, its in Chit-chat.

On new years eve 12-31-2008 my father dies infront of me from a massive heart attack. Giving him CPR and hearing that terrible death-rattle and seeing those lifeless eyes of his staring out across oblivion. Its a sadness I don't wish for anyone.

Then on my Fathers birthday 5-29-09 I get fired from my job .

July 7th 2009 my uncle, who I was very close with, goes into the hospital and is told he has a brain infection. July 12th 2009 we get a call at 1130ishPM ... my uncle is hallucinating and complaining he is being harrassed by aliens and dead colonial people. He kisses my mother and me and tell us he loves us.

August 30th, my uncle dies... alone.

September 11th 2009 I wake up to find out my car is stolen.
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I don't know why I am posting this.... I just really don't know what to do. I'm really trying to stay sober to try to get my life back to normal but its so hard. This sad site has become somewhat of a journal and its viewers have become distant voices in my head.

I suppose its a healing process to read through the past years of my life and my evolution into a pathetic burnout.

 

[Amantis]

I'm sorry to hear that.

Letting it out of your system by talking about does help, at least in my case. Bottling it all up and pretending everything is alright not only does it have an impact mentally, it also builds up on you physically in the long run, and not in a good way.

Trying to force normality back into your life might feel like the obvious solution to squash down your emotions, but by skipping the mourning process, again, has a negative impact in the long run. I have a feeling that you're probably the type who doesn't like others pitying you. (But then again, I could be wrong...so forgive me if I sound insensitive.) Expressing sadness, upset, anger, etc is not a sign of weakness - you have every right to feel whatever you're feeling. If you feel you need time out, by all means try to do so.

It will get tougher as time goes on. I find that it hits you even harder after a year or so - because you then start to really take in the reality of what happened.

If you want to talk just to let things out, feel free to shoot me a PM/IM.

- Amantis

 

[Aurora]

That's an amount of sadness nobody should have to deal with in such a short time. I'm sorry for your loss.

I'm not known to be a really sensitive person, but let me say this: don't try to hard getting over it. Basically what Amantis said, you'll know it when you're ready to deal with it. Take it slow untill then.

I'm a socially disfunctional guy who ignores feelings. Only advice that you can get from me is: please don't do the same.

 

[Tyrael]

In the lifespan of an individual the transcendental moments --from your momentary lapse of judgement during the ecstacy of life's fruits to the lowly dredges that open the mind to reach out and expand your horizons-- can run the soul to its last heaving breathe... But man was built to endure, man was built to feel these feelings for a reason.

I know you will be ok, Static. I know that life hurdles all of us. I, too, have felt the pang of death; and on Tuesday my Grandfather will go to the hospital for heart surgery, and his chances are slim. Write what you need to write to help you, someone will always listen.

 

[Jim Morrison]

If you feel down because your comparing your life to other peoples, their dad didn't die infront of them, they didn't get fired and all that shit..

just stop
thats all i can really say it's that simple learn to love what you have.

love the nothing you have compared to the everything everyone else shows

 

[MMORGHunter]

DUDE you were just releasing your sad thoughts here, i feel really sorry for u, for those things happened in your life,

Only God Knows Why.

 

[Pandaren]

Dude, that really sucks. W/e i write here will not help very much, i know one thing for sure - try to go out as much as possible and hang out with your friends. It really keeps to keep you sane.
I hope everything gets back in track soon for you.

 

[MMORGHunter]

Yup dude keep your self bussy and i think its time to move on, thought its hard. sad

 

[gobilamaker]

I agree w/ what u said MMORG., Guess thats the best for you to do bud, keep yourself bussy and of course more support from friends and family is needed to help u up your spirits. CHeer up bud

 

[Emperor Pan I]

Two cannibals are eating clown. One turns to the other and asks "does this taste funny to you?"
Everyone laughs.

 

[Static]

i would of perfered a racial joke. They're more uplifting.

 

[PauseBreak]

I'm very sorry. I really, honestly, things turn for the better for you. Life just sucks, period. I've had my bad times, but one thing that really keeps me up is knowing that it could be worse.

I hope things get better for you.
-BRET

 

[gobilamaker]

Yah me too i like racial jokes, that why i like the cartoon series of

Family Guy
American Dad
The Simpsons

 

[Static]

, but one thing that really keeps me up is knowing that it could be worse.

I hope things get better for you.
-BRET

thats what I said... then my car got stolen.

 

[Emperor Pan I]

i would of perfered a racial joke. They're more uplifting.

A black kid was helping his mom in the kitchen when he accidentally has flour dumped all over him making him look white. Thinking he'd make a joke, he goes to his mom and says "mommy look I'm a white kid." His mother grabs him by the ear and scolds him "don't you ever say that". So he goes to his dad and says "dad look I'm a white kid." His father smacks him in the face and says "don't you ever say that, no go wash yourself".
Finally he heads upstairs to see his grandmother to whom he says "look I'm a white kid." She grabs him, and spanks him a few times and says ""don't you ever say that". The boy replies, "I've been white for fifteen minutes and already I hate all you fucking niggers."

 

[Bob Marley]

Its sad to hear about things like that, and devastating to have them happen to you. but you cant forget you still have yourself and your life to think about. go find a new job, keep yourself busy. acknowledge that you know youve been hurt, but don't let it rule your life. theres a time and a place for everything and if being sad is taking up all the space, what else do you have room for yknow?