Clashing with the ex's.........sigh

[Glowy]

Well after a year n a half me and my ex-fiance have finally crossed paths. I got in touch with her on myspace to get some valubles back from her. She had my $800 leather jacket/ski jacket and some pictures I drew in art class in high school. The main reason i even did this is because my mom wants those pics back. Well we agreed to meet at wal-mart parking lot. So there I sat waiting for her. I knew she would be late. She always was( some things don't change). My heart was racing so fast i swear i bout had a heart attack.

Well she finally showed up in a green ford truck. (Wonder what happen to the car i bought her?) Anyways after a year 1/2 i locked eyes with hers. Those beutiful bright green eyes. And year 1/2 of bottled emotions started to come up. So at this point it was extremly awekward. Well she got of of her truck. (I notcied she lost some weight) and was dressed to impress. I knew this tactic. Make me jealous, showing me what I can't have anymore. Well it was working .

Well of course we started out in a full blown arguement. (liek i said some things never change). Well I ended up paying her $400.00 for the stuff. She claimed I owed her money. But I didn't care I had to get those pics back. Well once the exchange went threw she calmed down a bit and started to ask how I was doing. How's my drug problem and what not. I told her the truth. I've went far downhill. She kept me in line when were together. Something I really need. Well at this point I was starting to feel my broken heart's scab burst open. I knew I had to get away soon before I broke down. Well we talked a bit more about life the past the what ifs....

And what started to kil me is i saw in her eyes that she still missed me. She still loved me as I did her. The way she kept grazing my entire body. Yearning for me like I was her. I had to get out fast. So she knows me 1 1/2 story since we broke up. She tried giving me advice. Telling me to get it together and make something out of myself. That just made me more depressed.

Well I finally told her I had to go. (but in reality I wanted to talk to her forever). The last time i saw her before this she was crying begging me not to leave. We never closed it out our realtionship. One minute we argued I left. Next day she was gone. her parents came to fl and took her back to tn.
While I am now heart broken all over again for what i had to do. I let her go because she deserved someone better than me. Its easy to break up when you hate them for somthing. But breaking up with them for their own personal good is so hard. I still love her so much.

She said she's been thinking about me. Well we hugged (god it felt so good) and I turned to get into my truck and wave the final goodbye that I will never see her again as long as I live. Well when I turned around she had a tear going down her beutiful left cheek. Her eyes all watery, the quivering bottem lip. She told me that she loved me and missed me every day then jump in her truck and took off before I could react.

Doing the right thing hurts so bad. I'll never be the same. I realized she is the only girl I ever/will let into my heart. I miss you kristi. I love you. I hope you do well in life.


I told her the day i left her that line from the hinder song -I can't stay sober....if it's over..... 1 1/2 years ago.





Sadly it's the truth

 

[Metal Gear Flash]

thats a really sad story, i almost shed a tear cause it hit home...this sounds a lot like a situation i had a couple months ago when i had to leave an ex gf behind when i moved....we had been dating for 2+ years on and off, and she was the first and only girl i had ever loved....she was dating someone at the time and i had informed her i was moving back to live with my folks again (partly cause i was still in love with her and that whole damn town reminded me of her)

we decided to hang out the night before i left (big mistake) so she comes over, OF COURSE looking as good as ever...i hate women... and i pop in boondock saints, a movie we used to watch together a lot...the whole time we maintained radio silence but she laid in my lap still. We said our goodbyes and i was all choked up, and she was already crying...i kissed her and turned around to walk back into my apt before she could say anything else.

So im sitting there playing wc and its about 1 in the morning, and i hear something at the door...i go to see what it is and guess what, its her!...to make a long story short, we down to my room, have the best/worst sex ever, and i wanted to kill myself the whole time...keep in mind we were not in good terms...so she left and i sat there feeling 300 times worse than before..left the next morning, and still think about that stupid bitch all the time...i hate getting all emo over girls...just makes me feel like a shithead

love is a mother ****er

 

[Hitsua]

I didn't read it because I don't care, and I'm guessing neither does anybody else.

 

[Dragnskull]

to put it bluntly: get over it.

if you two argued all the time then you wernt compatible, face it, and move on.

hopefully you take this advice better than my best friend...

 

[Andrew]

It sounds like you guys could have worked through it. It also sounds like she was a good influence on you. Oh well. It's in the past.

 

[Jenny]

I didn't read it because I don't care, and I'm guessing neither does anybody else.

QFT.

 

[_CM]

Sad story... Don't really know what to say...

 

[Vadriel]

Sad story, and I feel for ya...but Jesus was all the drama necessary? We get it. No need for "those beautiful green eyes," bud. You sounded like you were hamming it for impact.

You do have my sympathy/empathy, but my best advice is to do like Dragn said, get over it. That's easier said than done, but shit I've had to do it, and it tore me apart, but I managed it and now I'm happier than I've ever been in my entire life. You CAN get through this shit.

 

[Ninja_Blue]

Hope it never happens to me T.T

 

[Vadriel]

Don't worry about that. Having a girlfriend is a prerequisite. =)

 

[Clearcast]

Thats rough man. If she means that much to you then at least leave a myspace message or text or letter/postcard whatever just see how shes doin and have a quick chat every now and then. Just not too much. No point blanking each other forever, people like what she sounds like dont come along everyday.. Might even come across each other again some time. Harsh when you realise you lost somethin special, i know

Not just that, but last person i knew who met someone worth it but broke up and never spoke again, he's been kicking himself over it and getting himself wound up ever since. Long as it doesnt look desperate its good to still talk.

 

[‘°ºO*¥§âVâGê ¥*Oº°‘]

Me and My fience of 3.5 yeasr broke up last month on the first and she moved out that very day, 1 day notice 1 day gone, Thats hard, But its life

 

[Glowy]

Yea I know I need to get over it. I can smother my emotions pretty good but once the bottle fills up it pours out. If it was easy as turning off a switch i would of broke the damn thing by now. This what happens to me when i stop smoking pot =/.

 

[‘°ºO*¥§âVâGê ¥*Oº°‘]

Then dont stop smokeing put, just dont do it excessively. Me its been hard to get over her, from moving away from my parents directly with her, i didnt know any better or any different. Dood just think, theres lots of fish in the trees, just go trolling. I still love my ex so much, but its been over a month and not a word. Just go out have fun, be yourself, have lots of sex and just dont worry. If its ment to be its ment to be, let fate decide it(if you believe in fate or destiny) Just remember put you first.Thats what im doing and im heveing a hell of a blast.

 

[Glowy]

i don't reallly have a choice on the pot

 

[LordNevar]

Been engaged twice, and left both times. Each story is too long, and noone cares, and I dont' care enough to tell them. In short, Cowboy up, and get yourself some friends with benefits. Enjoy youth while you have it, I realized getting married, and or having kids early is a waste. You spend your whole life complaining about it and fighting, but loving it at the same time. It's better to have loved and lost, than too have ever loved at all.

 

[Glowy]

see i totally disagree with that last sentence. i've got plent of benefit friends. I just refuse it. I'm over the sex scene. I havn't been laid in bout 2 months now. It has nothing to do with sex. I'm over it. Just a big flashback of memories and emotions thats all. Whats the ****ing point of loving and loosing it? Why fill your heart with holes? A broken heart changes people. Ignorince is bliss. thats my staement

 

[t.A.T.u97]

QFT.

Jenny your posts never fail @ making me laugh and slightly horney.

Seriously though, its very sad. I know the feeling. Love can suck at times. If you ever need a shoulder to lay on or vagina to plow, Jenny will be on msn.

 

[Egotistical Asshole]

Posting this type of personal information on an online forum leads me, and everyone else, to believe you have no friends in real life and should probably consider getting some. No one cares about your situation, you act like you're the only person whose ever gone through this. I look down upon you with reproachful eyes.

 

[Tacitblade]

Awww, poor Glowpole...Since you still love each other so much, have you considered giving your relationship another chance? Arguing too much is definitely not good, but you two really seem in love. Maybe you could work things out?

I don't know about your ex, but if a guy broke up with me because he thought I "deserved to find someone better" I'd just think he wanted out, maybe she's the same way and didn't understand, so she immediately picked a fight with you when she saw you. If you don't get back together, you just have to move on, take better care of yourself and your health, and someone else will come along! You can have a relationship where you're happy, in love, and not constantly fighting. I will hope for the best for you! Please take good care of yourself though.